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也有頑皮童年與叛逆青少年的奧修
 
奧修於1931年12月11日出生在印度的古其瓦達,從小便離不開淘氣搗蛋四個字。與其他小孩不同的是,打從出生就帶著叛逆和獨立的因子,和凡事必親身體驗的性格。儘管他不愛上學校制式枯燥的課程,小時候便以寫詩、寫小說和繪畫的才華出名,他的清晰邏輯和辯論天賦更是讓他在場場辯論比賽打遍天下無敵手。
 
年輕時,奧修涉獵了林林總總的書,從政治到哲學、科學,從宗教到偵探小說等等;因為關心窮人,奧修也閱讀眾多有關馬克斯、恩格爾、共產主義和社會主義的文獻。此外,奧修的冒險生活也多采多姿。尤其是半夜走在懸崖上,和跳進漩鍋這些令大家嚇得魂飛魄散卻津津樂道的經驗。這些經驗儘管看似危險恐怖,卻讓奧修和他的朋友們體驗到「頭腦不知怎麼停止了」的靜心狀態,和產生「自我不要抗爭就能離開漩渦(死亡),如果中途抗爭就完蛋了」的洞見。 
 
有人問奧修,哪一件事讓他轉向心靈方面的尋求,他說:「值得回憶的記憶就是死亡。」五歲時,他的妹妹卡斯姆的死亡第一次帶給他很大的震撼。七歲時,他目睹鍾愛的外公無意識的逝去而幾近不想活。十六歲時,他的女朋友夏許的死亡更帶給他很深的震驚。這些讓他經驗到親密關係的瓦解,和找尋任何永久關係的徒然,而把他丟到「單獨」的狀態。奧修說:「就我的看法,當你被丟回你自己,走向心靈的旅程就開始了。」 
 
從各式各樣的生活冒險體驗靜心,或獨自在心靈上鑽研下功夫,與閱讀形形色色的書籍,漸漸的,那個輪廓越來越清晰,奧修十分清楚人類痛苦的根源並不是來自於社會和政治系統制度,而是在自身身上。唯有意識的革命,而不是任何政治革命,才能帶給人類真正的快樂泉源。
 
成道與旅行演講
 
當奧修越來越深入靜心時,終於來到一個無計可施、無處可去的點。1953年3月21日,奧修21歲成道。「那個想成佛的病已經消失了。」奧修如是說。
 
成道之後,奧修的生活一如往常,叛逆與直言不諱的作風更是數十年如一日。只要是不合理的事,那怕是所謂的千年優良傳統,不論代價是什麼,他也絕對反抗到底。他開始在印度走遍大江南北,到處演講。由於他演講的主題內容顛覆了傳統的道德觀,如批評甘地的崇拜貧窮的觀念、傳達「性」並不是羞恥罪惡,而是要敞開以愛來接受「性」、或抨擊虛偽的宗教組織……等等,這些話語像火苗引起來自大眾和媒體一波波的怒火和辱罵,然而儘管大家憤怒嚷嚷反對奧修所講的內容,卻無法給予合理、中肯和真實的反駁。
 
旅行演講了近20年後,他不再到處奔波,「現在口渴的人必須來到井邊」。他開始待在孟買,對真正發自內心渴求而不是只想滿足頭腦好奇的人演講,並開始點化門徒;這時,西方人開始陸續到達。在眾多被點化的門徒裡,最特別的是奧修的父母親也接受點化成門徒。1971年,當奧修向母親頂禮,母親向兒子──現在是師父頂禮時,現場的人無不深受感動。爾後,奧修的父親在1975年跟他說:「這將是你向我行頂禮的最後一次,因為現在我要成為你的門徒。」對此,奧修這麼形容他的父親:「我的父親是稀有的,並不是因為他是我的父親,而是他的確是稀有的。」
 
社區的誕生與世界流浪之旅
 
1974年,普那社區首度誕生。奧修說:「共產主義(communism)來自社區(commune)這個字。共產主義基本上是一種心靈的洞見,它並不是一個改變社會經濟結構的問題,而是改變心靈的洞見。」在社區,沒有種族、國家、階級和高低好壞之分,每個人都是獨立被尊重的個體。社區的主要目的是要創造一個靜心的空間、一個「佛圈」的環境,讓人們可以在這裡生活、工作、學習和靜心。每個人可以在這樣的環境裡探索自己的內在、發掘自己的潛能。
 
1981年,奧修移居美國,在奧瑞岡州從一片荒漠裡建造出綠洲般的奧瑞岡社區。當時美國人反對異教的聲浪不斷,當地民眾和政府的侵擾也從未停過。1985年,在沒有搜捕令的情況下,奧修與其他幾個門徒被逮捕入獄,隨後被驅逐出境。其中一個監獄的警察說:「那個人(指奧修)真了不起,不論在他身上發生什麼事,他都保持很放鬆,很心平氣和。」
 
被美國驅逐出境後,奧修開始了為期一年世界流浪之旅。從尼泊爾到希臘,到烏拉圭、牙買加和葡萄牙……總共加起來有21個國家將他驅逐出境。拒絕的眾多民主國家不外乎被美國施壓,驅逐的理由是奧修會破壞該國的道德律和宗教。對於因美國主導而屢屢被各個國家驅逐的事件,奧修這麼回應:「有一件使我高興的事是,一個沒有任何權力的人竟然可以嚇壞世界上最大的權力,可以動搖它的最根部……不需要對他們生氣,只要將他們暴露出來……那就夠了……」
 
回到印度後,事情仍一波三折。奧修被政府禁令發表有關反宗教的話,外國門徒則被拒發簽證或被直接遣送回國。對此,奧修依然還是奧修:「我將會談一些反對所有宗教的話,因為它們是虛假的,它們不是真實的宗教。如果他有任何聰明才智可以證明不是這樣,我們歡迎他……」儘管如此,仍然抵擋不住世界各地源源不絕來訪的浪潮。
 
離開地球:我將我的夢留給你們
 
1989年,他停用「巴關」這個名字,他的門徒要求要叫他「奧修」。「奧修」是由oceanic這個字演變而來的,意味著融入海洋,還有一個意思是「受到祝福的人,天空在他身上灑下很多花朵」。之後兩年,奧修的身體因承受在美國監獄被下毒的影響越來越虛弱,但他還是沒有停下他的事情,以他喜歡的方式一直繼續下去……
 
奧修畢生的演講囊括了各個層面的主題:從出生到死亡,從政治到宗教,從物理到哲學,從性到超意識等等。更將古往今來不同時代背景的成道者的經驗──佛陀、耶穌、馬哈維亞、譚崔密宗、派坦加利、老子、莊子……等等,以自己存在性活生生的經驗,用現代人能夠了解的口語,來分享他的洞見。
 
但真正烙印在人們心坎裡的,並不是以上洋洋灑灑的事蹟,而是奧修無時不刻自然流露出的慈悲與愛。一位曾在奧修身邊的門徒──吉歐緹提到:「我覺得他就像一朵沈重的雲,載滿了水,對所有來跟他接觸的人灑下他的愛。」
 
在1990年1月19日,奧修離開身體時,他說:「我將我的夢留給你們。」
 
有人問奧修,他想要怎麼被記憶?他說:「我所喜歡的是:完全把我忘掉,同時原諒我,因為要把我忘掉是很難的,那就是為什麼我要要求你們原諒我,因為我給你們添麻煩。記住你自己。」
 
奧修的回答著實令人感動,因為人們都想被記住,害怕被遺忘。但奧修心懸掛念的,仍是如何將人們引導到醒悟的道上,不忘提醒大家,如果太依賴指著月亮的手指,反而會忘記用自己的翅膀飛向月亮。
 
記住你自己!成為你自己的光!Appadipobhava!
 
參考書目:奧修傳、與大師同在、與奧修交融
◆中文
 
Osho Also had Naughty Childhood and Rebellious Youth Like Us
 
Osho was born on the 11th of December, 1931 in Kuchwada, India. The character of mischief had been His very nature since He was born. What distinguished Him from other children were rebellious and independent genes, and the character of experimenting. Despite that He didn't enjoy the dull and boring courses in the school, He was famous for writing poems, short stories and painting. Moreover, with nature ability of articulating ideas logically and debating talents, no one could ever defeat Him in any debating contest.
 
When Osho was young, He explored books on every possible subject, such as from politics to philosophy and sciences, religions and detective novels … etc. Moreover, he concerned for the poor very much, so He also read numerous literature about Marx and Eagles, communist and socialism. Besides, Osho also had brilliant adventure life. Especially those experiences like walking on the cliffs on the dark night and diving into the whirlpool, which made everyone hair-raised but delighted in talking about it. It seemed that these experiences were dangerous and horrible, however, they brought Osho and His friends to the state of meditation : "somehow the mind stops", and the vision of "one can get out of the whirlpool (death) if ego stops fighting with it, otherwise you cannot survive once you fight with it."
 
Someone asked Osho what the event was that made Him turn toward the spiritual, He said: "One memory in life which is worth remembering is that of death." When He was five years old, the death of his younger sister Kusum shocked him a lot for the first time. At seven, He witnessed His beloved grandfather dying unconsciously and painfully and could hardly live on for a period of time. At sixteen, His girlfriend Shashi's death brought him even deeper shock. From all of these, Osho experienced the destruction of an intimate, deeply affectionate relationship, and the futility of seeking any permanent relationship; afterwards, threw him to the state of "aloneness". Osho said: " … So being thrown upon oneself, in my view, begins the journey toward the spiritual." 
 
To experience meditation in various ways of adventure in life, or dig into the spiritual by Himself, and read books in every possible subject, gradually, the outline became more and more clear. It became quite apparent to Him that the roots of human misery and unhappiness were not from social and political system, it was on and in oneself. Only a revolution in consciousness, not any politics, can bring the true happiness source to human.
 
Enlightenment and Tour Discourses
 
As Osho entered deeper and deeper into the mysteries of meditation, He came to the state of having no way to do, having nowhere to go. On the 21st of March, 1953, Osho attained enlightenment. "The Buddha-disease had completely disappeared." said Osho. 
 
After enlightenment, Osho's life was as before and usual. He never changed His rebellious style and straight way without reservation a little bit. As long as anything unreasonable happened, regardless of so-called fine tradition for thousands of ages, He would definitely strive against with no doubt whatever it took from Him. He began to travel all over the India and give discourses everywhere. Because the subject and content overturned the traditional morality, such as criticizing Gandhi's poverty-worshipping ideas, or conveying that "sex" is neither shame nor sin, one shall accept it with love and openness, or lashing out at hypocrisy of organized religion …etc. All of these discourses brought a series of anger and abuse from the public and the Indian press. However, despite that they were against what Osho said, no one could give reasonable, pertinent and authentic response.
 
After travelling for discourses for about 20 years, he stopped going anywhere anymore. "Now the thirsty will have come to the well." He began to stay in Bombay, giving discourses to those who really seek from the innermost being instead of those who just want to resolve the mind matters. Then, Osho also started to initiate people into sannyasin; meanwhile, the westerns began to come to visit Osho. Among all of the sannyasins, the most special event was that Osho's parents were also initiated as sannyasins. In 1971. When Osho touched the feet of his mother, and the mother bowed down and touched the feet of her son – now her master, those who were present at the occasion were deeply moved. After then, in 1975. Osho's father said to Him:" This is the last time you will be touching my feet, because now I will become your disciple." Alluding to this, Osho said:" My father is rare – not because he is my father, he is simply rare."
 
The Birth of Commune and World Tour
 
In 1974, Poona Ashram was established for the first time. Osho said, "The word "communism" comes from "commune". Communism is basically a spiritual vision. It is not a question of changing the economic structure of the society, but of changing people's spiritual vision." In the Commune, there is no distinction of any race, nation, social class, high or low and good or bad. Everyone is an independent and respected individual. The function of commune is to create a space of meditation, an environment of "Buddha field". People can live, work, learn and meditate here. Everyone can explore his/her own inner being, discover his/her own potential in such place.
 
In 1981, Osho moved to USA. A model agricultural commune rose from the ruins of the central Oregonian high desert. During these years, there was always paganism clamor against Osho. The government and residents never stopped invading and harassing to the commune. In 1985, without warrants, Osho and other disciples were arrested. Osho was deported from America afterwards. One of the policemen in the jail said:" That man (Osho) really has something. No matter what is happening to him, he remains relaxed and peaceful."
 
After deported by America, Osho started one-year vagrant world tour. From Nepal to Greece, Uruguay, Jamaica and Portugal… In all, 21 countries had denied Him entry. Those democratic states which rejected Osho's entry were mostly forced by America, the reason of deporting was that Osho would had destroyed the morality and religion. About the event of being deported over and over by many countries led by America, Osho responded:"… One thing that makes me glad is that a single man without any power can frighten the greatest power in the world, can shake it from its very roots… There is no need to be angry with them – just expose them. That's enough…"
 
After returning to India, obstacles came with one and another. Osho was prohibited from delivering dicsourses of anti-religion subject, and the foreign disciples were denied visas or sent back. As to the situation, Osho remained Osho:" I will speak against all religions because they are pseudo – they are not true religions. And if he has any intelligence to prove otherwise, he's welcome." Even though, it still couldn't stop people coming to visit all over the world.
 
Leave Earth: I Leave You My Dreams
 
In 1989, he dropped the name "Bhagwan". His disciples ask to call Him "Osho". "Osho" is derived from the word "oceanic" which means dissolving into the ocean, and more:" The Blessed One, on Whom the Sky showers Flowers." Later in 2 years, Osho's body was weaker and weaker due to being poisoned in the jail in America. However, He went on and on doing His things, the way He likes to do.
 
Osho's discourses in all His life include a variety of subjects: from birth to death and beyond, from politics to prayer, from physics to philosophy, from sex to superconsciousness … etc. He has also spoken though his insights and in modern context on various enlightened masters like Buddha, Jesus, Mahavir, Tantra, Patanjal, Lao Tzu, Chuang Tsu… by His own existential and alive experiences.
 
However, what's really kept in people's hearts are not thousands of events mentioned above, instead, it's love and compassion spread naturally from Osho anytime and anywhere. A disciple who has been with Osho – Jyoti said:" I feel Him like a heavy cloud, full of water, showering His love on all those who come in contact with Him." 
 
On the 19th of January, 1990, when Osho left his body, He said :" I leave you my dreams."
 
When asked how He would like to be remembered, he said:" I would like forget me completely, and forgive me too – because it will be difficult to forget me. That's why I am asking you to forgive me for giving you the trouble. Remember yourself."。」
 
Osho's answer is really touched, since people always want to be memorized, and are afraid of being forgotten. But what lies on Osho's heart has been always how to lead people to the wakened paths, never forget to remind that if one is depending too much on the finger pointed to the moon, it's easily to forget to fly to the moon by his/her own wings.
 
Remember Yourself! Be Your Own Light! Appadipobhava!
 
References: The Awakened One, Diamond Days With Osho, In Communion With Osho
 
 

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